It Hurts

I feel helpless... and sad. Had a discussion this evening which led to some sad realizations. This is not how I hoped or wanted it to be. It's been so wrong for so long. This can't be how it's supposed to be. And really the saddest part is that the one key thing that could help get things back on the right track doesn't exist. We can't communicate, I say one thing and it's interpreted in a totally different way. Or I bring up some issue and I get a totally unrelated matter thrown back in my face. I honestly don't know what to do. How do you walk through a brick wall? When do you realize you can't walk through and decide to turn back? Do you walk around or climb the wall? What if it's too high or the wall is waaay to long to walk around? Is it fair that I keep trying? Why does it have to be so difficult? I prefer having a door or gate at the wall and being told the conditions for entry. That I can work with. But I cant work with just a wall. It hurts though. It hurts being unhappy. I imagine there's hurt and sadness on the other side of the wall. If both sides are unhappy why bother trying? Maybe it's really actually better to stay on respective sides. God dey Good night.